where to start...

life. such a weird thing it can be. guess i spend loads of my time trying to figure out what it is supposed to entail and look like. im guessing im not alone on this one. but sometimes i just wonder why things happen. i mean - so many things dont make a bit of sense. so many things hurt, leave me without hope, and so many things just suck. it feels like every pitch that i am thrown, i end up swinging and missing. a ridiculous swinging-for-the-fence, come out of your shoes type strike.

but life goes on.

shortly after all this came to the abrupt stop that it did, i got a call from one of my best friends, asking if i would consider moving to kenya to work for global connections. ive seen this organisation grow over the years, and have always looked fondly upon it. the folks who sit on the board and all who are involved with it, have great hearts, and love to help people. without too much delay i told them i would love to. really i didnt know many details, and i still dont know too many - but i will find out when i get there. there will be lots to do, and probably not enough time to do it in, but i am excited. we partner with an orphange there, as well as several other NGOs in Kenya and in a few other countries as well. ive never been to africa at all - but im just gonna leave this in gods hands and trust that he will take care of me.

so i get to thinking about all i have said and done in my life. and how many times i have told people and said that i really want to be helping people with my life, not just doing what will wants to do. and i think how i have never really done this. i mean i say it all the time - but i still havent really done it. so there it is god - i want to do this - but do i really want to? and so he calls me out on it. basically saying to me - if you are gonna talk a big game - then you need to have the game to back it up. funny how god called my bluff - but im going. i think it took a good kick in the ass - but i will gladly see where it takes me.

i leave the 26th of june from memphis and get to kenya the next day sometime after flying through detroit and amsterdam on to nairobi. i hope that i can keep this updated and keep you all updated - that is if there is anyone who still reads this thing...